Ga Eul’s POV

24 December 2009, 10.43 pm.

 It’s 10.43 pm already but still, I don’t want to go home. I still want to be with Yi Jung sunbae. I stared at his dying figure. I held his left hand and place it on my left cheek. How I missed this hand to touch me, hold me gently. Christmas is coming but he hasn’t wakened up yet. I kissed his hand softly. Tears start fall from my eyes. I was listening to his heartbeat. Now I’m waiting for his awakening.

 “Sunbae, can you hear me? Please sunbae wake up, I miss you. Don’t leave me araso? I need you, I will always need you. I love you So Yi Jung. Can you hear me? I love you, I I really love you So Yi Jung” I shook his hand softly

 Tears keep falling from my eyes, down to my cheeks. I can’t stop it, I can’t stop crying. I still can’t forgive myself for being stupid and what so ever. I was the reason why Yi Jung sunbae experienced this major pain. I feel guilty. Even though Jan Di, Woo Bin sunbae, Ji Hoo sunbae, Jun Pyo sunbae, Il Hyun sunbae and the rest of Yi Jung sunbae’s family didn’t blame this accident to me but I feel really guilty. I feel like, I was the reason why he’s in a critical condition now. He shouldn’t get this, he doesn’t deserve all of this. He should alive. You hear me Yi Jung sunbae? You have to alive for yourself, for me, for everyone. You hear me? So wake up! Wake up!!!

 “Mianhe sunbae, mianhe… it’s all my fault, mianhe” I sobbed

 “Why weren’t you listening to me? I told you the weather wasn’t good but you keep insisting that there’s nothing to be worried about but see? Now you’re lying in this room with closed eyes. Please sunbae, wake up!” I said in a desperate tone, totally desperate.

 What should I do now? I can’t face the fact that Yi Jung sunbae’s dying. Doctor said the probability of his awakening is really small. But I won’t give up. I’ll keep waiting for his awakening. I can’t lose him. He’s my life, he’s my spirit.

 “Sunbae, you have to be strong araso? You have to be strong for me, for everyone, for our baby here” I talked to him while touching my tummy

 Yeah I’m 3 months pregnant. When I was about to tell him this good news, he got that accident that causing him dying now.

 “ahm what time is it now?” I wiped the tears on my cheeks and looked at my watch

 It’s 11 pm already. My phone rings,

 “Yoboseyo?”

 “Ga Eul ah, you should go home now! Christmas is coming, you should celebrate it with us!” Jan Di said cheerfully

 I let out a small smile “I know Jan Di ah but, I want to spend my Christmas with Yi Jung sunbae” I sighed as I hold his hands tightly

 “Oh should we go there? I mean, should we celebrate it there?”

“Um I don’t think it’s a good idea Jan Di ah. Besides, I want to be alone with Yi Jung sunbae”

 “Oh okay it’s fine. Call me if you need something okay? Bye!”

 “Bye” I hang up

 This Christmas is pathetic. I supposed to celebrate it happily, cheerfully but all I do now is crying over and over again. Sunbae, I brought you a gift so please wake up, wake up…

 My eyes become blurry and I dozed off

 11.55 pm

 I feel something’s moving under my hands. Isn’t it Yi Jung sunbae’s hand? I lifted up my head and all I see is the smiling handsome man in front of me

 “Y yi Ju-jung sun, bae?” I said in stutter

He smiled “Annyeong Ga Eul yang” he greets me sweetly

 I covered my opened mouth and screamed his name

 “YI JUNG SUNBAE!!” I screamed happily as I hugged me tightly

 “Aww I make you cry again. I’m sorry Ga Eul, sorry for ruining everything” he said while rubbing my back gently

 “Don’t do that again araso? You scared me” I responded, sobbed

 “Don’t cry sweetie. I’m here. Don’t cry okay?” he kissed my hair

 “I missed you sunbae. Badly missed you” I mumbled

 “I missed you too Ga Eul. Il, I, sam, sa, o”

 “Sun sunbae? What are you doing?” I asked confusedly

 “Yuk, chil, pal, gu, sip” he continued

 I break our hug and looked at him confusedly “Yah sunbae, why are you counting?”

 “DING! Merry Christmas Ga Eul” he smiled to me warmly

what the? i just shook my head in disbelief

“Merry Christmas too sunbae”

 He moves closer to me

 “Saranghe Ga Eul yang”

 I smiled genuinely “Saranghe sunbae, forever”

 He kissed my lips slowly. I missed his warm lips. Passion tangled us. We broke our kiss and gasped some air.

 “So where’s my Christmas gift?”

I lead his left hand and place it over my tummy.

“It’s here”

 “Mwoh? You eat my gift? How could you? Aish you’re so mean Ga Eul yang” he pouted

 I laughed “Yah you pabo. It’s here! 3 months now”

 “Mworagu? Yo- you mean, my gift i-is a, baby?” he asked shockingly

 “Yep it is. Are you happy with your gift?”

 “I am. Thanks for the gift hon, the best gift I’ve ever got” he held my hand and kissed it

Even in the first, this Christmas is the worst but, in the end, well it’s the best Christmas ever. I wanna take forever tonight, just like this. With him, forever…